Hatred or Jealousy?

It was hot and humid yesterday. I think it was around 90 to 100 degree F or maybe more. Gertrude and Carlos visit us at the camp ground. They arrived around 1:30 pm. Luckily our air conditioning in the Rv was working fine. We stayed inside most of the time.






After dinner and after our guests have left, I took a long cold shower. Murphy and I then sat outside our RV and we have ice cream with cookie while watching a show on the TV. The cookies tasted like shortcake and it has some m&m on it. It has been a while since the last time I had chocolate cookies. Murphy said we forgot to ask our guests for some fruits in a cup for dessert. Yeah! I totally forgotten about the fruit cups we had in the freezer. Around 11 PM, we pack our little TV and brought it inside and call it a day. It was really nice having some company.

I woke up around 7 am this morning and went outside to get things from the car. Oh man the heat is very bad. I was sweating like a pig. I cannot wait for the rain that the weatherman had forecast for this evening.

My mom used to say that bad dreams are better not told. I had a bad dream last night. But I couldn't tell anyone. Not even to Murphy. I hope nothing bad happen to the person my dream.

I had good food today for breakfast from the satay and sambal kacang Gertrude brought yesterday. Thank you to Gert for the satay. I could never marinate my satay to taste as good as hers. Her kuah kacang was very good too. I like spicy sambal kacang.

My big niece is now using her cell phone to chat. How did she knows about all this? She is only 10. I called her to find out about it. She said she just have to pay little money. When I asked how much, she wouldn't tell. She said it was not much. Just a few cents. But that news was not as upsetting as what she was about to tell me afterwards.

Someone must have implanted to her thinking that Americans are bad. It is just like when someone wants to frighten you with the news of how the aeroplane will crash if you leave the country. Or as bad as you will be sold as slavery if your marry foreigner. etc. I asked her what is "akidah" means. She told me that Americans have man marry to man and woman marry to woman. That is what she understood bad "akidah" means. I then said, what about Anuar Ibrahim dengan sodomy dia tu? or the rest of Malaysian who have feelings with the same sex? Just because they do not parade to the public about their bad "akidah", does not mean they don't have it. My niece suddenly feel sleepy. Meaning that she does not want to continue talking about the topic.

I left her with new thoughts to ponder. I told her that she cannot judge people. I told her that even in Malaysia, I have seen bohsia, pengkit, lesbian, bapuk, etc. They are too having bad "akidah". But it was not for us to judge and say they are totally bad people. It was just choices that people make in their life. Actually, I can go on and on about the topic. But I figure I will not burden her too much with the other side of the story. She and I will have a long talk when we see each other in London this year.

I told my niece that I am at camp ground, camping. She imagine a small tent and stay in woods. Once again she had misconception of my version of camping. Murphy and I have evolved with our camping style. Our camp ground must not shut us off from the world. We must have our satelite dish, wifi, internet connection and definitely good reception of our t-mobile phone hook up. And I definitely am so happy that my blackberry pearl is working perfectly. Although I have to sit at one corner in the RV to get the reception, that is at least something and better than nothing. And as for the wifi, it will only working at the family house which is about 2 minutes walk away from the RV.

I was so bad to think that skinny people are sick. I must have been around big people a lot that everytime I see skinny people, I imagine they are having some disease or worst thing is AIDS. One time I was overseas and saw all these skinny people. I just feel very sorry for them. I must have read magazine too much. Damn that O magazine. Honey said they just didn't eat as much as we do, that is why they are thin. I still imagine they have AIDS or something.